The trees are all bent,
The wind is howling over,
The storm is yet to come,
But the damage is already done.
I offer you peace but you give me conflict,
I bleed my heart out, but yours is running dry,
The battle cry hasn’t been given yet,
But your guard is already up.
The soldiers are ready,
The Cavalry is on guard,
The war hasn’t started yet,
But the bloodshed is already done.
Darling, I never meant to start a war.
But now I’m going to end it.
I have been driving endlessly, through valleys that are deeper than the highest mountains I have climbed. Through sunrises and sunsets, some lasting longer than the other.
Sleep is now a distant friend, so I carry on my journey alone. Often, I reach out my hand to hold yours, only to be reminded of your absence.
Voids the size of the Milky Way stare back at me.
So I wonder, how an empty heart can feel so heavy.
I thought I was running away from the mess I created. Driving away from you and your thoughts. But they’re all staring at me from the backseat.
Gently reminding me of the pain that has attached itself to me.
I want to come back home,
I want to come back to you.
But I am lost.
And I don’t think these roads can ever lead me back.
Today I mourn,
All the things that I lost.
Things that never belonged to me in the first place.
I’ll list it in no particular order,
So here it goes.
And a happily ever-after.
Of all the things I lost and
The ones that left me feeling like a ghost,
You come a close second.
But if I’m being honest, I miss myself the most.
If love is a battlefield, darling
Then, I’m already dead.
You thought we could be friends
After all that we’ve been through.
But I need to survive,
So how could I ever betray myself and befriend you?
In my dreams
And they don’t lie, darling
We exist together
Not as a you and an I
But as an us.
I reach out and I can feel you by my side
Without a care in the world
Without an idea of
How much you mean to me.
In my dreams, darling
We always find our way back
To each other
Through distances and spaces
To warmth and love.
In my dreams, darling
You’re still there when I wake up
So I memorise your smile
And I hug you tighter
But only in my dreams.
What you’re holding on to is long gone. All that remains is the skeleton of what you once loved.
Please bury it.
Meal for one, memories of two,
Relentless thoughts and a longing for you.
Grief my constant is weighing me down,
I smile and laugh, but I wear a thorny crown.
Standing on the shore I wave you goodbye,
The ship has been wrecked and so have I.
I think it’s time to go.
I leave behind memories and love, but I hope I have taken away all the sadness.
Don’t let the pain blind you, don’t let it change you. Let it gently lead you to the path you were always meant to walk.
I have loved you from a distance, I have loved you from close. And now I must learn to love you from wherever I am going. Or perhaps, not love you at all.
It’s time to go.